Is it Just Me? Or Can Having a Kid be a Real Pain in the *ss?!

Wow.

So Dora's been a bit sick for a couple days. This is going to probably make me sound like a horrible mother, but when she's sick, she can be a real pain in the *ss.

Dora, some day you may read this and I want to apologize for publicly announcing this, but you WILL understand when you have your own. I really hope, if I already haven't, I don't give you a complex. But dear, you can be a frickin' handful to put it mildly.

Refusing to sleep, refusing to eat, refusing to bathe, whining constantly, never happy, needing CONSTANT attention, using me as an acrobatic gym doing Cirque de Soleil moves on me while I try to get work done on the computer, throwing food, refusing getting your diaper changed, "mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy".....I mean what are you? Two?!

Not happy being held, not happy being put down, not HAPPY with ANYTHING.

Wait a minute, that sounds kind of like me! huh

Usually my family is happy to watch her and I'm REALLY lucky I have help. I actually feel so guilty about how I have help and how other moms - probably you - don't; that I feel the necessity to only have them watch her when I either work out, have IMPORTANT work to do spy on people on Facebook , or have a doctor's appointment. No, seriously, I would hardly have ANYone watch her till she was about 1 1/2. I've always been like that. Always looking at the next person going: well, THEY don't have help, so I shouldn't either. THEY have to work while in school, so I should to. THEY don't drive a brand new Jeep Wrangler (yes, I was spoiled), so I shouldn't either. I'm so annoying. I also just feel scared for them when they do have to watch her!

Needless to say, on top of feeling guilty for all the moms out there that suffer on their own with no help, I felt Dora should stay at home with me when she's sick = 2 days of a living nightmare. Also, since she's not been feeling well, we didn't do our regular Mommy & Me playdate, go to the park etc., so we've been cooped up in the house, driving each other out of our minds.

Finally - this morning, I have a doctor's appointment! WOOHOO! (pitiful) And, Dora was being her usual "throwing a fit" self and wanted to go to grandma and grandpa's early! WOOHOO x's 2!!

So, here I am, with an extra hour to complain about my child!

I never knew how precious time was all those years before having a kid. And of course, having a kid is an extremely joyful, loving, rewarding experience I wouldn't trade for even having all that time back. But holy crap, it's a lot of frickin' work and can be a real pain in the *ss.

I don't know how you mother's out there that don't have help do it. I really don't. It is truly amazing.